Anonymous asked: stop eating so much cock you worthless whore. maybe youd loose some weight if you could keep a penis out of your mouth for five minutes
What I would do to be petite and skinny…
K well, I’m hardly ever on here, so might as well follow me on instagram> stolenvoicesburiedsecrets I post pictures on there more then I do on here. I just find tumblr to bring me down a lot and almost makes me more depressed so I’ve been avoiding it. Anyways, if you want you can follow me there. I will try to make an effort to come on here more often, but knowing me idk.
Anonymous asked: were you in treatment in calgary? what kind of treatment? (inpatient, therapy, day treatment)
111 pounds this morning. I wish it would come off faster. But oh well, least I’m not gaining I guess. Can’t wait to see 105.
Down down down.
Weighed this morning at 112. I should be happy, but not even close. Need to be 100. I’m scared about today, I’ll be home alone, but I’m just going to stick with eating low and hopefully no b/p.
My scale went from 113 to 114 this morning, past my lowest weight. Can’t wait till it hits 110 then 105! Then maybe 100 :)
Go Lovely Go Far Away I've Set You Free
Been on Prozac for over a month now, can see some changes. I can restrict more easily without binging and purging, but this week has been shitty with b/p.. I don’t know why, it almost feels like the pills have worn off and I need to up my dosage. Will have to book an appointment with my doctor tomorrow if possible. On the somewhat happy side of things, weighed 116 pounds this morning. It...
Really hope this prozac starts kicking in asap because then I won’t have the urge to b/p and it decreases appetite so I can restrict easily. I’m going to Jamaica in April, so I need to have the best body by then forsure, no excuses. I want to be 105 by the end of this year. I have too. I want to look cute in skinny jeans with fashionable boots with a nice scarf and jacket for fall and...
Why Can't I Just Be Normal?
Getting put back on Prozac, have to go back to see my therapist have to go see a physciatrist and have been diagnosed with moderate/severe depression. And on top of that I hate myself for being so god damn fat. Fucking grand.
So I kept up for 9 days burning 700-1000 calories everyday an eating 1500, and I’m actually seeing results! But then I managed to slip up and b/p yesterday and today, twice each day and no workout.. I feel so guilty and terrible that I let my eating disorder control me, I kept barely anything down yesterday and I haven’t kept anything down today.. I have no energy to workout. I’m...
Keeping Up ;)
Been working out like crazaaay, about to go on a early morning bike ride right away, then a jog then turbofire ! :) I feel pretty awesome that I haven’t gave up and just keep going. Even got a few workout buddies now, whoop whoop.
Anonymous asked: Would you mind having a boy as a texting buddy? In Canada too.
Ok so since Monday I decided to buckle down with this whole fitness thing and so far it’s going great! This is how it’s went so far: Monday: 55 minute insanity workout plus a 15 min ab workout Tuesday: 20 min HIIT turbofire workout Wednesday: 15 min ab workout plus 1 1/2 hours of biking and a 35 min jog/walk And tomorrow I’m going on a jog at 8, walk at 9,...
sarahfrancesyoung asked: Remember those thoughts are an evil ED trying to destroy you and that is NOT the kind of thoughts you deserve. What's up?
dean-winchester asked: I saw your post about feeling like you're going to die from your eating disorder :( I know we don't know each other, but PLEASE get help ! you wrote that you're scared & that's normal, but please just go get help ok? I care about whether you live or die & you're better than your disease. no matter what you've been through, you're a beautiful person who...
Anonymous asked: You are fucking hot. Don't be so down on yourself. I'd kill to know a girl like you. xo
I'm At My Breaking Point..
I’m at the point where I just want to die. I hate my life so much and this stupid fucking eating disorder is taking over my life. I’ve tried every single little thing to try and get better and eat healthy, but I’ve come to the fact that I won’t ever be able to recover fully from this disgusting disease. I’ve been close to point where I actually think I’m going...
I’m seriously so tired, I feel as if my body is breaking down slowly. All this binging and purging is taking a major toll on me. I really hope tomorrow will be a better day for once.. I feel so fat and disgusting. Taking laxatives when I get home, hopefully it will make me feel a tad emptier.
Someone To Text?
I need someone seriously.. I weighed myself this morning and I was 117. I hate it. I’m so freaking fat. Binged and purged this morning, it barely came out so I forced myself to drink warm milk and water with salt and mustard.. probably the most disgusting thing ever. I got out as much as I could. I feel gross. I’ve only had a bit of fruit since then, that was 5 hours ago. I need...
Todays the fourth day of not binging and purging, its actually been a huge accomplishment for me and it has not been one bit easy. I was 118 this morning.. so yes I did gain weight, but I’m trying so hard not to b/p and that’s whats more important. Before these four days, I was b/p 3-4 times a day sometimes even 5… Now I’m eating 800-1000 calories a day and trying to keep...
Weighed at my house, even though I drank some liquids, but I’m 116 pounds!! My lowest weight. So determined to get to 110 then 105! :)
116 or 117 this morning. My sisters scale is messed up, pretty sure its 3 pounds under so I added 3 pounds. I am going to get to 115.
Good Day Yesterday
Minus the b/p in the morning, I only had a piece of candy and coffee through out yesterday. I know I got everything out when I purged though, most likely under 500 calories for sure. I was 118 this morning. Today will be a good day.
It Was A Free Day And I'm Ok With It
Yesterday was my sisters wedding, I just tried to eat normal, and maybe overate a little bit and drank some, but I’m ok with it because today’s a new day. I was 117 yesterday morning.. this morning I was 119. I know it’s just undigested food and everything so I’m not going to stress over it and just keep doing what I’m doing. I’ll weigh again on Thursday/Friday....
Doing Good and Bad.
Been eating 800-1100 cals for about a week, I know I’ve lost weight, but I don’t want to weigh yet, I have b/p sometimes but really trying not to, I’ve gotten better at it and it’s easier to resist food. Sisters wedding is tomorrow I need to have major will power to not eat. But I think I’ll let myself drink if I don’t eat hardly anything in the day.
Down, down, down.
I’ve been eating 850-1150 calories a day for the past 4 days, tomorrow is 5. Can tell my stomach is getting flatter, wont be weighing till I’m comfortable enough too.
You Will Really Think About Going Vegan After... →
After watching this, I am so disgusted about how human beings can be so cruel all because of selfishness and the desire for food and money. What has the world come too? This made me sick to my stomach.